8-4-13

I really am scared about this. I'm so bad at not looking before I fall. Now I'm wondering if I haven't stepped into another heart break. I think I might need to take a step back and see what happens.

On another note. I went to Stephanie's wedding and that was really nice, I also went and saw Star Trek: Into Darkness and that was fantastic. I'm starting to get really into star trek. I want to watch the original series, and next gen, and voyager, and deep space nine, and the wrath of Khan. I want to become a Trekkie. :)

7-27-13

I have a bad feeling about this. Falling this hard, this fast is typically a bad idea. At least for me I don't know what to do. We have still been texting some but not as much as we did starting out and I'm freaking myself out about it. I'm just paranoid that because I was gone for almost 2 weeks that he has somehow become uninterested. And I worry that I'm already becoming too much bother. I think I worry too much but it's kind of driving me crazy. I'm afraid to say anything about it to him because then he'll remember how young and naïve I am. He'll wonder what he's gotten himself into.

7-6-13

So his name is Joe. He works in garden. He's super nice. He's 33 and has been married twice before. One of his ex wives still lives in the same house because she is disabled and on a fixed income. He has 5 kids. 3 sons and 2 daughters. I really like him.

5-9-13

I've fallen again. Nate, my supervisor, and it's a hopeless situation. Anyways I've actually started having hope that I will one day become a head cashier. I like this job and it's something I can see myself doing up until the point I have to move for school.

3-19-13

Worked tonight. It was a fairly decent night, though I did accidently leave my cell in my locker which was a bummer. Anyways I'm still angy that Chase got fired. It was so stupid, makes me dislike Andy even more than I already did. He's so whiney and I miss Chase. He was so fun. Let's see what else? Hm...I work at Robert Stuart again tomorrow. Then I go to Home Depot. I've applied for another job at the hospital. I don't know why I can't seem to get a job there. I've applied many times.

2-22-13

I've been sick the last couple of days. Pretty misreable but I'm starting to feel just a little bit better tonight. Watching Suits with mom. I don't watch this show regularly but I enjoy watching mostly because I think Harvey's awesome. He is so messed up but he's hilarious to, I love it.

2-16-13

There was this thing posted on Facebook that said "You can't start a new chapter in your life if you keep re-reading the old one." Am I still rereading J's chapter? I don't feel like I am. J didn't really have a chapter because there wasn't a relationship. There was just one-sided feelings. But the real  question is, is am I comparing guys to J? Is that one of the reasons I can't start a relationship? I don't know. I don't feel like I'm that incrediably hung up on the guy he just pops into my mind a lot. Which isn't fair at all. What a jerk. Stealing my thoughts like that.