4-27-14

What's new in my life? Well there's Chris. He's awesome. He works in paint and he's fun. I went to his house yesterday and we talked and we kissed and talked and kissed. I just need to figure out how not to be psycho.

12-26-13

Well Christmas passed by without any major drama. There's a new guy interest in my life. His name is Randy and he works at Home Depot. He was in garden but they've moved him around a couple of times and he has a second job. He works night time security at CSI. Anyways yeah he's super nice and pretty cute. I don't want him to see that I'm interested though because that doesn't work out well for me.

I lost my phone again, and that's depressing but anyways. I've got an interview at the hospital which I am excited about. Anyways...new years is on its way. Woohoo.

12-06-13

She doesn't believe in me. Everything I plan she has doubts for.

11-20-13

To quote Jude Harrison, I'm so tired of falling for guys who don't fall back, it hurts. I wish I could have someone who liked me and I liked them back and I didn't chase them away but being a psycho. Jake, Joe, and Leo. One liked me back but I chased him away by being a psycho and the other 2 didn't even like me back but I'm sure I chased both of them away by being a psycho anyways. It's very depressing.

10-19-13

I'm managing to maybe kind of back off a little bit. I don't think I'm being as suffocating as I was. But it still worries me. In other news I think I'm starting to get the hang of this budgeting thing.

10-9-13

I've becoming to reliant on talking things out with Jake. When he's not around and I'm falling to pieces I don't know what to do anymore. These things happen more than they should. I shouldn't let myself get so wrapped up in someone else.

10-2-13

I'm still having trouble getting out of my own head. I'm having difficulty dealing with my grandma lately. I just want to get away really. I'm so tired. This weekend will be a nice time for me. I won't be getting away but everyone else will be gone so it'll almost be like getting away because I'll have the whole house to myself. It'll be really really nice.

Now I want to talk about Jake. I think I did it again. I think I scared a possible friend off by being a psycho. I get to talk to the counselor tomorrow and we'll see how I am feeling after that.