9-12-13

I want to throw up. Joe isn't my friend on facebook anymore. I don't know why. I don't know what happened. He must have gotten sick of my drama. I have a lot of emotional drama that I can't help. It comes with being me. I live in my head and I don't get out of it a lot. It makes it really hard to make connections with people. I told Joe that I was a bad idea from the beginning. He pressed forward and got me lost in the idea that I could some how be some what normal. Have a connection with somebody. But now I am being swallowed by cruel reality. I'm not meant for that kind of thing. I don't know how to act like a normal human being. It makes me sick to think that I was so bad that a nice guy like Joe had to just delete me without a word.